Home Alone... and happy

this will be my new daily routine. from home to the office and back

What’s up with me? Nothing much, except that after x months of planning about it, I am finally moving out of my old apartment, all by myself, in a small private room in Oranbo near Dunkin Donuts and Watson, where I will be living with no one else, doing what a lonely happy person like me does. The truth is, I have no problems sharing a shelter with other people, and I even tried it for more than a year. But we sometimes found ourselves too consumed with our presence and begun hurting each other emotionally. And before we really hate each other to the fullest, I decided to move out. Lets face it, some people who are working great as friends and officemates, are not meant to dwell under one roof. That reality led me to Oranbo, the street of lonely but happy people...

Wish me luck...

Thou Shall Not Fear Singlehood

I was not looking for something when I found this draft on my email. I made it three years ago. And I guess its about time to you hear it. I cannot really believe it that I can really write something like this. lolx,.. just read it.

"While you are single, try looking at the bright side of it. You are free. You are completely in the driver’s seat, running your own vehicle. You have all the chances to meet new faces out of different places. You have all the time to discover your talents, skills and potential. You are in control of yourself. Try not to zero down on your life being single.

Relationship is not the only source of happiness. It has different forms and has many sources, like family, friends and the things around you. You may not see em because you are busy looking for a man whom you can call your boyfriend, struggling so hard to be in a relationship. What a desperate act. And surely you dont deserve it. NO!

Don’t over speed, if it’s not the right time for you to have a relationship, so be it. Because if you find someone just to satisfy your desperate need of a relationship, you may find the available guy (commonly known as mr. right now) but not the right guy. This will end into more painful situation, inflicting more sufferings to yourself. You might end up in a pure unadulterated self abuse or self sabotage.

Everything has its proper moment. Like a rose bud, its blooms at the right time. Never look for someone out of the desperation of having a boyfriend. Because committing in a relationship requires acceptance. Wait for the right time when someone will offer himself to you, to love you, care for you and to completely accept you of who you are. He is around you somewhere unseen by your eyes. You do not have a bf because he might be busy looking for you. Or when he was there knocking at your door, you are outside your house looking for someone else. Stay and wait. He will soon find you.

Try to wait for the right time. Love comes along when you least expect it. And when the right time comes, you will definitely have the satisfaction from the right kind of love you just need. Trust me, I’ve been to that but never did I look for someone to love. I just waited patiently. And when he knocks at my door, I was home to open, to welcome him inside me. And here I am, happy and proud to say, I am committed! Maybe I’m not that good looking but is loved by the one I love."

My relationship with LUELL was over.. three years ago. I am with another man right now. Someone i really really adore and care about. ... You know who this guy is right? I am proud of my relationship with Arnell.

A Movie Review

Its not that I hate the movie, I was only expecting too much from it, so I end up disappointed. I thought this film comes next to TRANSFORMERS, the last super hero film that knocks me off my entire self. WATCHMEN is not a movie that your kids should watch. It is actually a mature film that talks about sex crimes, American-Soviet war issues and all the likes. There are also some explicit conversations that are only suite for adults. Dr. Manhattan also had several genital exposures on the entire movie. Plus the nipple exposure of Silk Spectre II and Nite Owl II during the making love scene might be exciting for adults but might turn out a little disturbing for young movie goers. So, this is not like X-Men or Superman but a simple PG-13 film.

It was not a superhero film, but a sluggish film version of the 1985 WATCHMEN comic series. Two hours and forty-five minutes is too lengthy which made the film boring. Gossips are spreading over the net that the writer actually dislikes how the movie was made and even the ones who actually read the book were totally disappointed how it was translated to a motion picture.

The effects were flawlessly done. At least they found the right team to make it a little realistic. The characters were able to portray their roles effectively. The costumes and settings are just superb. I have no negatives for that. The cinematography is brilliant and I guess the 1980’s setting is the best choice for the film. I’ll add more Kudos for the unpredictable ending that literally left my heart pounding for hours. Bravo!!!

My verdict? One star for the actors, story writer, costume and setting, and the staff who made the film at least a little exciting. A wrapped-up four stars for the WATCHMEN movie.

.. to the dyozas...

sorry naman stella and mich.. wala kayo dito.. umuwi kasi kayo agad..

I have been bugged lately by the reality that every friendship has to undergo a certain rough to be tough. And it became true to me after meeting my new peers. I don’t have to name them coz they know who they are and how special they are to me, next to my partner and my family.

Ok, I am materialistic, hard core social climber, self-centered, self-absorbed, blah blah.. name it... but being a plastic, I am not a big fan of, the reason why I really find it easy to stick to friends because i am not one big hell of a plastic. And yes, I am choosy when it comes to the people I wanna be with, every single day of my fcuking life. So, if you become my friend, you are great.

I am not really looking for someone who’s… very… hahaha... What I'd like to meet are those who can embrace me at my worst, and still find reasons to like me. I am a very transparent. Hiding emotions is not in my genes. Anything that comes out from me is what comes from the very core of my MEAN (which is never an issue) personality.

I am one of the few people with a grandiose case of narcissism. You'll always see me all over the place, like I want to be the subject of any discussion.. good or bad. I was born and was raised by my family to be a bitch, and they succeeded. That.. I don’t deny.

So, loving me as a friend is really a life-threatening decision and staying with me is a humongous sign of an exceptional endurance. Bless are those who become my friends. I thank them for the undying patience. Its not really easy being my buddy, my friends know that. So, I thank you with all of my heart... (even if i dont have one).

Why Worry About 2009?

with an out of bed look.. i took this picture with my Nokia 6220 classic with Carl Zeiss optics. Set at 5 megapix with xenon flash on, at close up mode, red-eye off..

Oh yeah,… I am having the longest vacation right now. For someone who’d been working his ass out for a year, I deserve to have a long long holiday. This is my sort of a retreat from the outside world. That is why I decided to spend the entire marvelous eleven days of doing nothing but sleep, eat, go out and have fun, with my partner, so I can really get the juice out of that fabulousity. I am actually having an ORGASM, feeling so good about this year-end-holiday.

I don’t wanna think about 2009, my hypothalamus is exaggerating my emotions towards it. And yeah, I am still serving that revulsion over the #9 for no reason. I just hate the number. Number 9 for me is a horror. F(“,)ck you!

Still drooling over having my own laptop before the year ends. I provided myself well with the things I “OHHH” and “AHHH” this year. Like the air con I bought for our before-not-but-now-peaceful apartment. I also had 8 phones this year, two of which are given by my partner. The 6120 I like and the 6220 I like a lot. My CREATIVE ZEN VISION W which was also donated by my partner. A portable DVD/TV/USB player that I also gave one for my partner. Clothes, I mean lots of it. SHOESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. A BED. And a LOT MORE.

Though I feel bumpy in 2009. I still look at the bright side. I am alive, with a good life, a loving dedicated partner, a job, fabulous friends, the universe… what should I worry about?

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!

The Attack Of The Killer Nurse!!!

I decided to be a NURSE, a maharot one. So, I named my costume as “MAHAROT NA NURSE” at the Monster Ball last Oct 31. I won, and its everybody’s loss. Bwahahahaha

You guys want to see more of the monster ball?

Click these:

USAP Halloween Party
Twas A Happy Halloween
USAP Halloween Parteh 2k8
Revenge Of The Alteregos 10.31.2008
USAP Halloween Party Yay
USAP Halloween Party 2008
U.S.A.P. Monster Ball


And for my video, click here:

MAHAROT NA NURSE

and also few of my candid shots at the Brakes Trick Or Treat..
i am a bank teller rape victim naman sa araw na yun..

click me

enjoy!!

Nakakatax Refund Naman Yan, Te...

This is the first time I ever had fun with my earnings and yes we all received our tax refund after a million months of complaining about the large amount of tax deduction on our monthly wages. What else can you do with the money but spend it. Right?

Yes, I finally am opening a bank account named after me. I’ve been planning to save some of my earnings even before I received the life-changing tax refund.

I also had a chance to pursue my charitable plans of sharing some of it to my sister, who asks for a complete set of church uniform, and my brother who badly need my financial assistance. I can't discuss it here coz I don’t want to sound like I’m exposing my brothers mismanaged life. I am only disturbed after seeing him on a scrawny-look the last time I visited my family in BICOL. I was even blown out with tears when I saw him on that situation. I admit, we didn’t get along that much because his heart refuses to love a homosexual brother but it doesn’t mean I have to give him the same treatment. I should be mad at him but I set that aside coz he needed my hand. And so I did and it felt different. I really have a heart of a loving brother, though I never asked him to love me back but at least respect me for who I am and what I decided to become. Anyway, the food for his family is secured for at least a month. That is the help I can give out for now. If I got more, then ill give more. That’s a promise.

Art is not made to just sit back after receiving his cash, of course, I shop! Shop here, shop there, shop everywhere. I stroll around the mall gliding like I was born to shop to death. Hahahahaha. Just kidding. I just had some speakers for my CREATIVE ZEN VISION W, had my phone fixed for my SUN CELLULAR number, updated my toiletries, bought myself a traveling bag so I can carry everything I need in just one carriage. Of course, got some nice colorful undies from where else can you buy best quality, hip and fashionable inner wears but BENCH. I got three of them, the colorful ones. And you know me; I won’t stop shopping without getting something for my beloved Arnell. ROCA has this white muscle shirt with faces of models printed on it, a perfect gift for him. I even got one for myself too, a month ago.

It all happened in a day.

And the next day, everybody wears a new look. NAKAKATAX REFUND LOOK.

bwahahahahahaha

DUMBELINA!!!!

It took me a million years to post another blog entry. And yes, I went to Bicol, spent some quality time with my family and friends who had been really dieting a lot. I feel their junks on me. Everybody is skinny, why am I fat? After living like a millionaire in my home town, I am back in the metropolis with nothing but clothes, myself and some nuts (some in my head while others were sweetened).

Not to mention my first ever travel by the sky. My dream is for SPERMAN to rescue me and fly me to the moon. I am 25, and yet I still hold a childish fear. And yes I am acrophobic. A special thanks to Melvin, who was with me at my first air trip with fear, I am slowly getting over.

Just like the virgin-looking half-virgin Myda, I am also loaded with too much work. So, some may be expecting something explosive from this new blog entry. It may not be but I sure did have the most outrageous laugh yesterday.

One from the million lazy days at the office, the MUG shot addict and LOMOGRAPHIC ARTS ASSOCIATION certified cam whore, The Star of “blogspotting..”, Nikki asked me to check my YM list for an award winning status message from our previous officemate in Legazpi. Blame our dirty minds for laughing out loud. Brace yourselves guys and here it is!!!

Thaaaaadaaaaahhhh!!!!

And also one of our team mates offered him self to the hungry girl, but fail in the end with the girl’s fear to get a “tinga.”

Gaano ba kaliit yan jerjer? Parang dental floss lang, na pwede mong ipasok sa gitna ng dalawang nag uumpugang ipin? Hahahahahaha. Next time, be a little nosey, DUMBELINA.. bwahahaha

Look, I Am An Avatar!!!

I had one of the most boring days of my life last Sunday morning. I was the only one in the room aside from of course, my husband who had been sleeping quietly for hours, because he thinks he had to, for the achievement of his so-called “old man that dwells in a young body” look. (that he failed to don’t have, or maybe he looks so lip-smacking for me coz I love him more than you do. Everybody loves my husband) I tried to close my eyes and get more sleep but I just couldn’t.

So, I hurried up, stood on my ass and fed my eyes with the boring and was written-by-mistake, self-declared unedited blogs of my fellow officemate, (who, we think should blog in Filipino which is OK for a non-writer who wants to do blogs and we understand her if she effectively write them in her native tongue.)

After, squeezing my asshole from that crispy laughs that I just had, I landed on a website called FACE YOUR MANGA. A cool do-it-yourself-site to where I instantly become a perfect avatar maker. Just take a look at how cute I can be if I am an avatar. Tadaaaahhh!!!!

Isn’t that gorgeous? Now, you can make your own. Make sure you are bored enough to do it. Now, click this to enjoy Facing Your Manga.

Ninoy And Joseph Gave Me Something To Blog About

Bored?.. . fed up? Got nothing to do? Grab some ABE, take some fake hair, set it on top of your head, pull some Ninoy and Joseph.. then finally pose for a GJ shot.. strange things happen..

enjoy!