Home Alone... and happy

this will be my new daily routine. from home to the office and back

What’s up with me? Nothing much, except that after x months of planning about it, I am finally moving out of my old apartment, all by myself, in a small private room in Oranbo near Dunkin Donuts and Watson, where I will be living with no one else, doing what a lonely happy person like me does. The truth is, I have no problems sharing a shelter with other people, and I even tried it for more than a year. But we sometimes found ourselves too consumed with our presence and begun hurting each other emotionally. And before we really hate each other to the fullest, I decided to move out. Lets face it, some people who are working great as friends and officemates, are not meant to dwell under one roof. That reality led me to Oranbo, the street of lonely but happy people...

Wish me luck...

Thou Shall Not Fear Singlehood

I was not looking for something when I found this draft on my email. I made it three years ago. And I guess its about time to you hear it. I cannot really believe it that I can really write something like this. lolx,.. just read it.

"While you are single, try looking at the bright side of it. You are free. You are completely in the driver’s seat, running your own vehicle. You have all the chances to meet new faces out of different places. You have all the time to discover your talents, skills and potential. You are in control of yourself. Try not to zero down on your life being single.

Relationship is not the only source of happiness. It has different forms and has many sources, like family, friends and the things around you. You may not see em because you are busy looking for a man whom you can call your boyfriend, struggling so hard to be in a relationship. What a desperate act. And surely you dont deserve it. NO!

Don’t over speed, if it’s not the right time for you to have a relationship, so be it. Because if you find someone just to satisfy your desperate need of a relationship, you may find the available guy (commonly known as mr. right now) but not the right guy. This will end into more painful situation, inflicting more sufferings to yourself. You might end up in a pure unadulterated self abuse or self sabotage.

Everything has its proper moment. Like a rose bud, its blooms at the right time. Never look for someone out of the desperation of having a boyfriend. Because committing in a relationship requires acceptance. Wait for the right time when someone will offer himself to you, to love you, care for you and to completely accept you of who you are. He is around you somewhere unseen by your eyes. You do not have a bf because he might be busy looking for you. Or when he was there knocking at your door, you are outside your house looking for someone else. Stay and wait. He will soon find you.

Try to wait for the right time. Love comes along when you least expect it. And when the right time comes, you will definitely have the satisfaction from the right kind of love you just need. Trust me, I’ve been to that but never did I look for someone to love. I just waited patiently. And when he knocks at my door, I was home to open, to welcome him inside me. And here I am, happy and proud to say, I am committed! Maybe I’m not that good looking but is loved by the one I love."

My relationship with LUELL was over.. three years ago. I am with another man right now. Someone i really really adore and care about. ... You know who this guy is right? I am proud of my relationship with Arnell.

Another Papalicious Conviction

It was one the boring days that I decided to scan some of my DVD collections with a hope to find a good watch. Then, I happen to realize I’ve been buying DVDs that I don’t actually watch. Maybe because I consume most of my free time playing with my PSP (how can i get so anti-social?) or maybe too lame to start another series which I know, would stop me from sleeping for days. So, I found a treasure on Lipstick Jungle I bought two months ago. (I am not sure)

I read about it and found out that the writer who wrote my old time favorite Sex and the City is same writer of the Lipstick Jungle. Because I love it her so much, I decided to give it a shot. A shot that remained to be a plan for months but was pushed through last night.

I didn’t like the first episode coz I thought it was boring. But after watching the second one, the series finally got me hooked. I ended up sleeping at 2 am but still feeling great waking up at 7am. I love the people, the characters, the place (its New York for God sake), the music (which terrifically fascinated me because I actually feel good listening to it while watching them move on the screen) and the men... (Yummilicous Papilicious men I should say)

And because I love you guys, (though I hate sharing my men) I’d like you to meet the newest certified member of my very own HMMMN PAPI list. ROBERT BUCKLEY. (Don’t you just love to see him shirtless?)

Drool over guys, I am having his babies soon.

Did I mention to you that I crushed on Hugh Jackman once? No, I didn’t? Oh yeah, I didn’t made it official because he is maybe too old for me. And I passed by the Lipstick Jungle and met this young and hot Robert, who I know is also full of c*m. Oh I’m sorry about that. I see a young Hugh Jackman on him but that’s not how I like him. Just look at him… and you’ll see why. This guy made me hate shirts. I love seeing men without it. Bwahahaha..

I know you want more. So here's more.

Money Cant Buy Love But Can Buy Happiness

ill be a millionare soon.. watch out..

No matter how you consider yourself a happy person, because you are surrounded with happy carefree individuals, there will always come a time when you will find yourself alone, staring at the blank ceiling, thinking about the not-so-glorious side of your life. This scenario visited me early this morning. I suddenly miss my life in Bicol, my mom, my dad and my sisters.

With these longing thoughts in my head, I decided to give my sister a ring just to cure this loneliness for a family. It was a relief, and I thank you SUN CELLULAR for bringing my family closer despite the distance.

I am however haunted with what my sister told me. “The bigger you receive, the bigger your expenses will be...” And this message rings the alarm. I've been denying this painful truth for months and here comes the acceptance part. Yes, I’ve been receiving a lot, and also spending too much. Do these things go hand in hand?

When I was in home my land, I am used to receive only a quarter of what I am receiving right now, yet I stayed satisfied with the things I can buy from that four digit salary. As a normal person, I aim to heighten up my wage so I decided to include myself to the bunch of hopeful travellers here in Manila, to have a new life and to be with the man I love as well. And because I live closer to Mr. Luck, the relocation thingy turned out successful. I am receiving four times bigger than my provincial rated income several glorious months ago.

The irony of it however is that, among the saddest of the saddest days of my life, this is the first time I ever experience being drought for like a month. Yes, I don’t have much money in my bank and my wallet also misses his bulge, yet i stayed fabulously beautiful. I cannot even buy the second hand OLYMPIC EDITION LENOVO E390 I really am dying to havr. What the fuck!

Lesson: It is maybe normal for a person to look for more if they think they can afford more and they deserve more. However, it is not bad to think about SAVING some. Okay, I may sound like a blabbing momma on an early morning month end, but this is actually true. I just wish I can restart doing it this summer. In fact, I know I can slow down on purchasing shirts online; spend unnecessarily on food that actually bloats me to this depressing size, and buy my favorite TV series. Or maybe I can trade that last resolution to just stop malling. I mean… Just this one, please? I love Sex and the City, and I need to buy the complete seven seasons. I think that made sense.

The Reason Why People Resign...

If working on your present job is starting to feel hard as looking for a new one, get the hell out of it. And I am a believer, but don’t hate my job. I even love doing product descriptions. I just hate some people around me. And I want them to disappear. If I only have selective vision, where I can set my eyes to see only the people I like and deselect those I hate. Grrr.. Can you just f*cking disappear, Assholes?!!!

I mean please…

JAY-R SIABOC and TERI AUNOR...

How are they related? Magkamukha di ba??

Soak Up The Sun: The Anak Ng Pasig Summer Weekend @ Pangasinan

And Yes!!! We went to Pangasinan to have fun fun fun and we sure had lots of it.
Sobra… Kahit Alam Kong Hindi Na Tama…

Take a look at these pictures to experience the fun we enjoyed and the fun that you missed.. hahahahahaha!!!

Kahit mga lalaki naging bakla na rin.. bwahahahahaha

The Sexiest Photo Next To Mine.. lolx

This is not a Save-The-Endangered-Species Campaign...

Beating the summer heat

Sitting right next to a certified HMMM PAPI

Having a lot of fun fun fun

We dont intend to be sexier than the BENCH AD

Oh la la!!!

And the best part is.....

I didn’t get that PENSHOPPE AD look I really want that I will soon regret. Thanks to the maximum sun protection of the BEACH HUT MAX, the only sunblock spray that has SPF 75 plus, for preserving my fair skin.

Next stop? Pack your sunblock and sunglasses guys as we all get another bumpy ride to…… Zambales!!! Yohoooo!!!!